When you cannot say what you want to say

There have been time when I wish to convey a lot but fail to utter a word. Then  I keep on thinking about the matter rather I should say, over think about the pros and cons. But, when my urge to express myself overpowers me. I write it down, and if at all I am able to gather courage and enough reasons to not to hold on , I pass on my message to the concerned person as well. If any of my friend might be reading this, may remember all the written messages they have got from me. Few of them have still preserved my messages.
       Some of them have readily accepted my odd habit but, many still ask me why I always choose written communication over face to face communication. To which I'll place an answer here (again written ). Most of the times I refrain myself from saying things because I fear hurting people so I try to control the situation until I can. On the more while expressing myself verbally, that "drill down gaze" on me, makes me feel insecure, as if my words are not going to be believed and my eyes are being searched for the truth. I have tried face to face communication, but it seems it's not my cup of tea because most of the time I fail to make my point clear or I have to cut off in the middle to avoid exposure of my emotions.
       On the more I must say that I love the perks associated with written communication.
1. You are able to make your point clear without any interruption from other person. Your message is completely conveyed.
2.Your words are more accountable when you write them down as written words last more than spoken words.
3.While writing your are forced to listen to yourself. You are exposed to your own thoughts and emotions.You get to know what actually you want. This way you discover yourself. Most of the times I have discovered solutions to my problems just by writing it down, because while writing itself I find out what is worrying me.

4.Written communication makes you more expressive.

But with all this , one point which stands important is that "think before you write".
Main idea is to just express yourself, keeping things piled up in mind just slowly builds up a devil which torments you when you are lonely. Don't do that to yourself. Be kind to your oneself.

PS- Through this I would also like to apologize to all those whom I have ever hurt through my written communication.

Eyes- window to the soul

Eyes the most beautiful gift given to us by nature. Now, those who think a lot, a flash of thoughts may strike them, why eyes are the most beautiful  gift? Even I was also searching  for a justifiable answer . But then, I was reminded of 'Beauty lies in the eyes of beholder'.

But, here we are to talk about the " window to the soul ". When one has to read someone through and through, just willfully peak into their eyes and you'll know the person in one go. Here, I would like to stress on the word willfully, because until and unless you are not interested to read the other person, you'll just have a pair of eyes staring back at you.

Your eyes speak the unspoken words which never even came out of your mouth. Eyes speak a lot. Even the emoticons differ the expression through eyes ;).Ok, I'll bring forward an example which  might have come in front of most of you. One of those sad days when you don't want to talk to anyone and haven't told anyone what is wrong and your mom just by looking at you shoots up a question , "What's wrong with you?". To which if you answer "Nothing", the next thing what she does is, looks straight into your eyes to assure herself that whatever you are saying is right or not. You can not escape your mom's gaze. And if you try to steal your eyes she catches you then and there. Mom's willfully read their child's eyes because they want to solve their each and every problem. They know how to look through "that" window.

So, the point is that eyes can be very well read and rarely(considering the exceptions) can anybody come up and say that nobody can read or guess what is on my mind.

This reading of eye is a silent language which if learnt can build up a strong relation. I read somewhere that a true relation begins when the silence between the two is complete. And here is when this eye language comes into action. A simple look and you can feel the warmth and comfort. Well, I may not be any one new who brought down this point . There are numerous songs and poems which describe this beautifully.

I brought up this topic because I wanted to share few of my eye language experiences. I just caught one of my guy friend  gazing at one of my girl friend somewhat like this:

And he stole his gaze when I caught him red handed. I just thought, how much he has to express to her but never speaks because he is afraid to loose her. Therefore, I would suggest that just look once into the eyes of your loved ones and know how deeply you are loved, because eyes would definitely reveal the truth.

But do keep your gaze soft so that the other person does not feel awkward or feel like being interrogated.

With this I just hope that my silent message gets conveyed ;).