There have been time when I wish to convey a lot but fail to utter a word. Then I keep on thinking about the matter rather I should say, over think about the pros and cons. But, when my urge to express myself overpowers me. I write it down, and if at all I am able to gather courage and enough reasons to not to hold on , I pass on my message to the concerned person as well. If any of my friend might be reading this, may remember all the written messages they have got from me. Few of them have still preserved my messages.
Some of them have readily accepted my odd habit but, many still ask me why I always choose written communication over face to face communication. To which I'll place an answer here (again written ). Most of the times I refrain myself from saying things because I fear hurting people so I try to control the situation until I can. On the more while expressing myself verbally, that "drill down gaze" on me, makes me feel insecure, as if my words are not going to be believed and my eyes are being searched for the truth. I have tried face to face communication, but it seems it's not my cup of tea because most of the time I fail to make my point clear or I have to cut off in the middle to avoid exposure of my emotions.
On the more I must say that I love the perks associated with written communication.
1. You are able to make your point clear without any interruption from other person. Your message is completely conveyed.
2.Your words are more accountable when you write them down as written words last more than spoken words.
3.While writing your are forced to listen to yourself. You are exposed to your own thoughts and emotions.You get to know what actually you want. This way you discover yourself. Most of the times I have discovered solutions to my problems just by writing it down, because while writing itself I find out what is worrying me.
4.Written communication makes you more expressive.
But with all this , one point which stands important is that "think before you write".
Main idea is to just express yourself, keeping things piled up in mind just slowly builds up a devil which torments you when you are lonely. Don't do that to yourself. Be kind to your oneself.
PS- Through this I would also like to apologize to all those whom I have ever hurt through my written communication.
Some of them have readily accepted my odd habit but, many still ask me why I always choose written communication over face to face communication. To which I'll place an answer here (again written ). Most of the times I refrain myself from saying things because I fear hurting people so I try to control the situation until I can. On the more while expressing myself verbally, that "drill down gaze" on me, makes me feel insecure, as if my words are not going to be believed and my eyes are being searched for the truth. I have tried face to face communication, but it seems it's not my cup of tea because most of the time I fail to make my point clear or I have to cut off in the middle to avoid exposure of my emotions.
On the more I must say that I love the perks associated with written communication.
1. You are able to make your point clear without any interruption from other person. Your message is completely conveyed.
2.Your words are more accountable when you write them down as written words last more than spoken words.
3.While writing your are forced to listen to yourself. You are exposed to your own thoughts and emotions.You get to know what actually you want. This way you discover yourself. Most of the times I have discovered solutions to my problems just by writing it down, because while writing itself I find out what is worrying me.
4.Written communication makes you more expressive.
But with all this , one point which stands important is that "think before you write".
Main idea is to just express yourself, keeping things piled up in mind just slowly builds up a devil which torments you when you are lonely. Don't do that to yourself. Be kind to your oneself.
PS- Through this I would also like to apologize to all those whom I have ever hurt through my written communication.